ahhh i’m officially 22. There’s no better way to start my birthday than a 9am bio class (puke) in 3degree temps, I mean, really. More and more I’ve been thinking about moving to California (after I get over my fear of moving away alone, that is), which is something I never thought I would want to do. I need seasons and winter, I had convinced myself!! Fuck the winter, I could barely move this morning I was so bundled up (and still frozen, obviously). Well, what can ya do. Anywhooo I’m not doing anything for my birthday today, as I refuse to do things when it is this cold outside but plan on getting very drunk this weekend in honor of myself, which is pretty standard anyway. Jenn gave me a card that plays music and features a cat slurping a martini and my mom gave me one that made me cry a little bit when I read it at 3am and was feeling weirdly homesick, even though I’ve only been away from home for 3 days and who am I to be homesick anyway? I make no sense
Ummm this semester is pretty much going to be a nightmare and I’m trying to not think about how I will be end up being a hermit for my last semester of college, but I gotta do what I gotta do. ehh. This winter does not seem like it will be a good one, I hate that an entire season, or the idea of it, can make me so depressed. How stupid. Well I guess I’ll go enjoy the rest of my birthday now, meaning that I will lay in bed thinking about how dark it is at 5 o’clock, and maybe try to read a little bit. (Though it is hard to read a textbook when you are depressed, especially one that talks about the evolution of lizards, birds, etc., and not that I’m overwhelmingly depressed or anything, I just am realizing more and more how much I hate this stupid season and being on this stupid campus! /end complaining) Maybe I’ll cut my hair.
